Edrie

I had nightmares all night last night. When will this be over - I'm not sleeping well again. For the last three nights I've gotten a total of 12 hours of sleep. And I am an 8 hour a night person.

I've only sen two people this morning and both mentioned I had sunkin eye - ahh skull head. That is me.

Tonight will be fun though

Last night I went to Kareoke at Club Cafe with S and J from work. It was fun - but I didn't go all out. We also went to an Irish Pub just before hand - to get good and sloshed before going to sing... I didn't stay late enough to sing. But I DO have to work today and be out again tonight

at least it is nice out. Such a blessing in that way - I tookt he dog out this mornign and just sat by the lake in the sun on a bench. The water was dead calm and there was almost no sound. I almost felt like I wasn't there. That would be nice - being not there, or here or anywhere.

But I *am* here and must deal and move on. The loan should come thoruhg - thanks to some paperwork signing. I will be able to pay the contractors for the work they did last week (was only able to give the last guy 1/2) and to get the Engineer paid when he gives me the plans (He won't give them to me unless I pay him)

Oh and to pay the town for the second permit which costs $700. Nice lot ehhhh. $200 for the original test (would have been 650 if it had passed - actually he should have charged me 650 anyway - but he didn't - this is the guy who hugged me...)

Then 125 for the town to do a perk test. For the perk test... 400 for the digging guy and 360 for the engineer

That is only a drop to start with. The plans will then cost me another 6K (when all is said and done) and the town another $700 as I mentioned above. And then the replacement of the system... Hopefully we can go with a gravity fed (I hear this is the way to NOT get one of those plastic pipes in your front yard) as the gravity fed is about 10K cheaper then the pump system. But I have to move pipes in my house (UGH!!!)

ANyway - I just need some $ now so I can pay these people and get this moving...

I feel so stuck - why did we have to have this horrible event on top of everything else that was ALREADY unbearable.

It is really unfair that so many bad things can happen at once...

I need a break - something lucky that will change my life for the better